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As I walk through life with eyes wide open, soaking in all that I can at one time. I consistently realize that this world we live in will never reach the potential it has. As humans we are emotional beings that do not understand how to control our impulses. Every second we feel something whether we choose to express it or not. Many talk about emotions as if it’s a sign of weakness but in...

Aug 7th

Aug 6th

Uncertainty

Being uncertain is surely a certain feeling when ur questioning ur next move. Allowing uncertainty to have a great impact on ur judgement means ur not sure or uncertain of who u r & where u want to be… I am certain that uncertainty will not be taken into consideration for any decision. If I am uncertain of a choice or action then it should not be made/done. Uncertainty is simply telling...

Jul 16th

Jul 15th

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My favorite song

You are my favorite song… that has been banned from being played on the radio.This song only plays in my head and as time progresses I forget part of the lyrics. Bits and pieces of this song repeat in my mind and my heart begins to cry. My mind tries to reboot and erase this song but it never can erase it all. One day I would be able to overwrite this song but until then I hope my mind...

Jul 11th

Jul 2nd

sweetpeazdream-deactivated20120 asked: The begining of your life, your story forever etched on the blank pages in some of the best chapters in my life. As the day continues on, these memories begin to fade, back into the back of my mind, under the lock and key burried in an open grave. One that I refuse to close, whyI don't even know. So I smile in hopes that things aren't as bad as they seem. Wishing you well, at times...

Jun 28th

I'm unafraid of

Catching feelings Taking a leap Slipping & falling Getting attached Making someone priority Playing cat & mouse But I need to stop doing so for those whom wouldn’t want to do it for me…

Jun 28th

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May 14th

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What’s worst than knowing Ur beautiful but get treated like an ugly duckling….

Apr 26th

4/13/11

I will make a promise to myself that I will no longer date ppl with children (even with pretend kids). The emotional baggage is unbearable. I cannot help u with what has happened in Ur past relationship(s) nor am I capable of fixing it. I know it isn’t fair but is it fair to me that I don’t have any baggage & I must carry urs. Ofcourse later in life as we grow together, yes but...

Apr 13th

Easter Morning Thoughts

2012 is testing me in many different ways. Economically, Socially, Personally, Emotionally, Spiritually, Sexually… Economically I’m struggling like many but I’m surviving. I have many luxuries but a few of these same luxuries I’m sharing with others, not so luxurious… Socially I’m a no one but it’s a personal choice. People don’t care much for my...

Apr 8th

Socrates is admired by many philosophers for his willingness to explore an argument wherever it would lead as well as having the moral courage to follow its conclusion.

Apr 8th

Jumped in Started swimming Got closer Not sure if it’s moving Or it was something I thought I saw … As I float It’s moving further Maybe it’s not for me I think I would just enjoy the water It is surrounding me Touching me Hugging me

Apr 1st

Mar 22nd

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Emotional Moment

Sometimes I wish I had someone to call/text @ random ass hours to talk about any random sh!t that’s on my fome… I guess thats my own fault that a person like that doesn’t exist in my life. Meanwhile many view me as that person to call/text. That’s weird… I grind alone & create this path alone. This too shall pass as another lesson learned…

Mar 16th

Feb 29th

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Pretty People Rant...

Apparently attractive people believe they may get away with whatever they choose. News Flash!!! You cannot. I’m over meeting attractive people and they believe they may tell me whatever they choose and believe I will give up some ass or become their “shorty” right away. UUUMMM negative!!! You gotta put in work just like everyone else. ASS!!! Then I get the story about how much...

Feb 29th

Feb 7th

Crying

As the water falls from my face, I’m confused. Where’s this water coming from? I’m indoors. How is this water falling? There’s no leak. Why is this water falling? I’m ok. What the hell is going on? I’m not sure. I ask myself these questions & look around the room. Genuinely confused about it. Then it hits me, I forgot to ask myself one question. Who turned...

Jan 27th

*stomach turns*

The ignorance in this world is absolutely sickening. Racism, sexism, homophobia, hate against someone religion. How do ppl have time to concentrate on hating something/someone when more than likely they don’t know themselves…

Jan 17th

Funny thing is...

I’ve spoken to and never called… I’ve ran but never walked… I’ve driven without riding… I’ve fought without fighting… I’ve cheated on u with no worries… I’ve turned on lights and everything scurries… I’ve looked in the mirror and seen someone else… I’ve started a fire and laughed as everything...

Jan 16th

When will I ever learn?!?!?!

I dont ask for anything from anyone but once I finally do ask for the simplest sh!t, bullsh!t comes right along with it. Don’t tell me I may ask for anything because its all a damn lie… All I can do is blame my damn self to begin with, cause I should’ve just done it on my own… points in the mirror to myself Get the fukk with it…

Jan 13th

“Fukk u lookin @ me for?!?! Blame urself for ur fukkin issues. I can only fix my...”

– My damn self…

Jan 12th

Happy New Year

Tears fall knowing that “us” or “we” would most likely not exist. Tears fall knowing the weight of not knowing are in those tears. Escaping my body slowly. Awaiting to be taken in the air. To wither away in the universe. As the first tears hits the side of my lip, I smile. Remembering. Loving. Thinking. I’ve still got much to learn & do. So farewell 2011, u will...

Jan 1st

For u I will not...

Make things right. Get an education. Excel in all endeavours. Protect health. Exercise mind. Explore options. Build strength. Become physically fit.

Dec 28th

Dec 25th

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No Instructions

We do what we do. We travel into the unknown. We think but not sure why. No guidelines are set and yet we have guidelines to follow. Paths are created meanwhile they r unseen.

Dec 23rd

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Reality Sets In...

Loving u & hating the hold u have over me is unhealthy. I cannot fix what went wrong. I refuse to even try cause this battle shouldn’t be won by one soldier. As 2011 closes, the chapter of us close aswell if u don’t realize the greatness u will be losing. As much as it will hurt for it to all end, STAGNANT is NOT an option…

Dec 22nd

Socrates Inspires Me

One of these days I will not be put on trial for my actions & my intentions. No one can place judgement that would make me be any different that I am. Not even a higher power/being. If I don’t stand true to who I am how could/would I expect someone else to do so. Castrate me if u choose, I will still reproduce minds similar to mine. Able bodied beings who create their own path & will...

Dec 21st

Yoooo

I’ve been gone for a min but I will be back soon lol… I gotta learn how to network

Nov 21st

Wish u were next to me

When I’m walking When I’m running When I stop When I fall When I fail When I succeed When I stand When I move When I shop When I watch When I sleep When I wake & yet distance isn’t what keeps that from occurring It’s YOU & ME but I’ll be fine doing that all on my own…

Jun 4th